Loneliness...

Dear all fellows...
This post i will write it in English...
Sorry for the inconvenient...

Maybe I just think too much...
But may be what I think is true...
As a human being...
Maybe I'm the worst...

Everyone said that...
Be a human being...
Don't think too much...
If not you will think too over...

I failed to be a human being...
I always like to think...
Anything, anytime...
My brain will keep on thinking...
Unstoppable brain...

I will think about...
All sort of stuff...
What have I done...
Who is important in my life...

Sometimes...
My brain will think till pessimistically...
Non-stop thinking...
What a annoying life I had...

This kind of thinking...
Is what it bring to my life...
The feeling that...
Loneliness and the sadness...

Why am I being lonely...
Why am I being so sad...
Who the hell made me fell lonely...
And who the hell made me fell sad...

My brain keep on thinking of it...
Even through...
I came out with a answer...
But still...

I don't think the answer is correct...
Many things in this world...
There is no the actual answer...
There is no right or wrong...

The matter of right and wrong...
It is so dependable for the specific person...
So , for me...
Thinking too much is not a wrong thing...

Currently for me...
I think this world is so corrupted...
It's so dark for me...

There is nothing last forever...
Relationship between boy and girl...
Friendship between each other...
Fellowship between all human being...

I know maybe some of you think that I'm wrong...
But for what had happened to me...
There is no doubt that I won't think so...
My friendship and fellowship can't last long...
There is no need to say about the relationship of mine...

I neither have a good relationship nor friendship...
Maybe is my personal problem...
Or maybe is this world being corrupted...
I still can't find the answer for this...

Since I still can't find the answer...
And where is the problem...
So now...
I will continue my loneliness and emo journey...
Until I manage to find the light of this world...
Or the another way which connect my loneliness journey to the other route...

XXX 放假的开始 XXX

~~放假开始了~~
~~好闷的放假~~
~~都不懂能做些什么呢~~
~~家乡的朋友又不多~~
~~他们又不得空~~
~~咳~~
~~真是的~~
~~他们放假我还有上课~~
~~现在到我放假了~~
~~他们却又要上课~~
~~真是没话好说~~
~~天啊~~
~~为何那么对我~~

****一天****

~~一天~~
~~还有一天~~
~~一天的考试~~
~~一天的等待~~
~~这一天来了~~
~~这天一过~~
~~学位第一个学期完了~~
~~放假就开始~~
~~放假期间~~
~~我要练琴~~
~~我要读书~~
~~但~~
~~我会担心~~
~~担心我的成绩~~
~~那会是个~~
~~好漫长的放假~~
~~就一天以后~~

要放假了。。。

~~咳~~
就要放假了~~
不知是开心事还是伤心事呢~~
真的是不知道呢~~

开心的那一部分就是~~
能回家~~
回到我最甜美的家~~
能睡在我想念的床~~
能看到我想念的东西~~

不开心的那一个部分就是~~
又回到了我的伤心之城/地~~
好害怕这次又不懂~~
会有什么伤心之事发生在我身上~~
所以我决定了~~

回到这伤心之地/城~~
没有必要的时候~~
就应该不会出街~~

这次放假有整整一个月~~
说长又不长，说短又不短~~
但我应经会在一个漫长的心情度过~~
因为我亲爱的已发出命令~~
不再让我在叫她亲爱的了~~
除此之外~~
中学生已经开学了~~

现在的我真是矛盾~~
又想这放假赶快到了~~
又不想这放假不要到来~~

~~咳~~

新的开始。。。

好久没回来写我的部咯个了。。。
因为最近都没有任何感想来写。。。
今天我有感想能跟大家分享。。。
这次我的分享会跟上几个POST有关。。。
如果谁新到这部咯个的话。。。
又想知道事情的经过。。。
就请看回之前的POST吧。。。

我这就开始吧。。。
我之前跟我亲爱的超过架。。。
我还以为这样我们就完了。。。
没想到她既然原谅我。。。
她肯原谅我。。。
我觉得我真是幸运。。。
但谁知。。。

这是就是一个新的开始。。。
新的开始是就是新的啦。。。
但这没有我想像中的那么理想。。。
我发短讯给她。。。
她虽然有回我。。。
咳。。。但也是。。。
现在的我。。。
真希望我和她能像以前一样。。。。
什么都能谈一番。。。