黑暗的放假！！

哎。。。我的大学已经开始放假了，但对我而言，那可说是好也是坏。。。好的是，我的宿舍完全是可以说没有任何人。整个宿舍都很安静。我可以认认真真地读书。。。坏的是，我没有放假，还是要继续读书。。。更加恐怖的是，整个宿舍已经寥寥无几了，我那宿舍的一个人还跟我说他看到一个我们都很不愿意去看到的东西。。。我真的很害怕我也会看到那个“东西”，我还有三个月要在这个寥寥无几的宿舍度过。。。我虽然已习惯了在黑暗度过，但那黑暗都是在我的家，这是我第一次在外度过这黑暗。。。我很希望我能平平安安地度过这恐怖的黑暗。。。

~！梦！~

我今天都不懂怎么了。。。今天早上一上完课，就回房睡觉了。。。虽然我今天睡了一整天，但我还是很想继续得睡下去。。。但在我睡了那么久的期间，我做了一个很奇怪的梦。。。我虽然不是很记得那个梦是如何开始的，但它对我来说可以说是很恐怖了。。。我一直以来已经习惯了在黑暗中度过，但那个梦的黑暗带给我一种恐怖有不详的感觉。。。在这梦里，我的家人正准备回家的时候，我们的家的地区一片黑暗，连一盏灯都没有。。。那时候，正在驾车的妈妈，不知为何不开车灯。。。这时候，我看到一个很深的沟渠。。。我们的车正朝向那个沟渠。。。我立刻喊着我妈妈！就差那一点我们整辆车就要掉了下去。。。然后我就被吓醒了。。。

柠檬

柠檬，

大家都知道什么是柠檬。。。

柠檬是一种好好吃的水果。。。

圆圆又黄黄的。。。

它拥有酸酸的味道。。。

让人吃了它会发抖。。。

但是，

它对于刚掉入爱河的人就不同了。。。

柠檬对于他们来说是不只是酸酸的。。。

还给他们带来悲伤以及绝望。。。

当他们给人请吃柠檬，

就表示他们示爱失败了。。。

带着悲伤的心情离去。。。

但那人是否绝望就得另谈了。。。

Have To Make A Decision...

Today is Thursday again...

Why always have to happened in Thursday?

Tomorrow have to go back to my current university.

So, today I have to make a decision...

A decision which will affect my life...

Now I have to decide whether send the sms to her or not...

This is my first time to decide about this stuff in my life.

If...

I send her the sms...

The outcome will be...

I success...

I will get a happiness, annoying and sweet life...

Or...

I fail...

And continue just be her friend but will not be as usual as before...

Or...

Even more worst, I will not able to her friend anymore...

If...

I don't send her the sms...

I scare I will regret in my whole life...

This is a hard decision...

But no matter how hard it is...

I still have to make a decision...

My decision will be...

I will send her the sms...

Even though...

I know I probably will fail...

I will not regret about it...

And...

If I don't try...

I will not know the outcome...

Sadness And Happiness

We as a human will always face our sadness and happiness in our life . There is no avoidable for these two kind of feeling . As long we are living , we will need to face it . For me , I used to have a lot of happiness when I was small . As I grow up , my happiness rate keep on decreasing and my sadness keep on increase . No matter how hard i tried , it is useless to struggle . This sadness is come from surrounding pressure and surrounding situation . I hate sadness , even though I tried my best to overcome it , but it won't stop . It keep on coming one after the other . I wish I could change back to a child . As a child , I don't have to think about :

• How to get good marks for my exam
• How to live without parents
• How to save money to survive
• How to endure the feeling

Most IMPORTANT is no need to think what is " F-R-I-E-N-D ".

我们身为一个人将会永远面对着悲伤和快乐。这两种感觉是无可避免的。只要我们还在生活着，我们就必须面对它。对于我来说，当我小的时候我曾经有过很多幸福快乐的时刻。正当我渐渐地长大时，我的快乐的心情就继续减少而我的悲伤的心情却不断得增加。无论我如何努力，这都是没有用的斗争。这悲伤都来自周边压力和周围的情况。我讨厌悲伤的心情，即时我尽我最大努力来克服它，但还是无法让它停止。它还是一个接一个而出现。我希望我可以变回一个小孩。作为一个孩小孩，我不必去想：

• 如何获取好的成绩
• 如何生活在没有父母的陪同之下
• 如何省钱生存
• 如何忍受的所有的感觉

最重要的是不用去想什么是“朋友”。

Home Sweet Home !!!

Yeah !! Tomorrow going back to my home sweet home... So excited because may be I can meet her... I think so... So miss her but can't let her know... :'( This time I think I might not tell anyone I'm going back... But i think no one will know if they do not follow my blog... .;) And when I reach home , I just stay at home unless emergency , if not I won't go out...

Yeah !! 明天我将会回我的甜蜜的家。。。真兴奋因为我可能可以见到她。。。我认为吧。。。真想念她但又不能让她知道。。。 :'( 这次我应该不会告诉任何人我回去了。。。但是我认为没有人会知道如果他们没有留意我的不咯个。。。.;) 然后当我到家，我将会待在家除非紧急事件，要不然我是不会出去。。。

New Stuff....

Hehe... Yesterday at 10 something p.m. I just reached my hostel... This time I went back to hostel is not like usual from my aunt's house , is from my hostel's member's house... This is my first time I am invited by him to go to his house to sleep over night... From my feeling , I feel quite happy... But I really jealous at him , because his friends are so good... When he reached his hometown , his friend straight away find him go out to hang out... Totally not like my "friends" in my hometown...

呵呵。。。昨天在晚上10点钟左右我到达我的宿舍。。。这次我回来宿舍不像以前一般，都是从我的阿姨家回来，而是我宿舍的人的家。。。这次是我的第一次被人邀请去他的家过夜。。。从我的感觉，我感觉一般的开心。。。但我真的是非常羡慕他，因为他有一般很好的朋友。。。当他一到他的家乡，他的朋友就立刻找他出来玩。。。真的一点都不像我的家乡的 “ 朋友 ”。。。

Thursday...

Haiz... Today is Thursday... Today quite special because today morning I don't have English class... The reason I don't have English class is because currently I'm in final exam week , so... Beside , tomorrow is my last exam... Not really feel quite happy at all because my semester break just like doesn't really have... :'(

咳。。。今天是星期四。。。今天比较特别因为今天早上我没有英语课。。。我没有英语课的原因是我现在正在大考的星期，所以。。。除此之外，明天是我的最后一个考试。。。我不会觉得开心因为我这个学期的假期就好像没有。。。 :'(

My First Time

Today is my first day writing post.... Feel so exciting and nervous also because this is my first time writing it and also my time publish it to let the whole world know about me....

今天是我的第一天写在这里。。。我感到非常兴奋以及非常害羞因为这是我第一次在写这东西也是第一次把它放上网让全世界认识我。。。