~~咳~~

~~咳~~

~~终于有时间了~~

~~从上个几个星~~

~~到这个星期一都在忙~~

~~真的是好累好累~~

~~就这样~~

~~我得罪了我的~~

~~亲爱的~~

~~因为我没回她的~~

~~短讯~~

~~我没回你是我的~~

~~不对~~

~~虽然我亲爱的是原谅了我~~

~~但~~

~~我还是觉得很~~

~~对不起她~~

~~从上一个POST~~

~~有人留言~~

~~叫我鼓起勇气~~

~~向她示爱~~

~~可是~~

~~我已经没有那种~~

~~勇气了~~

~~因为~~

~~我知道~~

~~我多数都会失败的~~

~~一旦失败~~

~~就~~

~~很大可能~~

~~连朋友都没有的做了~~

~~我不想失去她~~

~~我~~

~~宁愿我们依旧是朋友~~

~~至少这样我们还能~~

~~谈天说地呢~~

~~时不时就~~

~~发发短讯~~

~~聊一聊~~

~~而且~~

~~我每次失败~~

~~都会用到我~~

~~很长的时间来恢复~~

~~我的情绪~~

~~甚至会影响我的学业~~

~~所以~~

~~我不会再去想了~~

~~也不想再去试~~

~~但~~

~~我会默默得祝福她~~

~~守护她~~

~~祈求她的~~

~~人生美好~~

~~快乐~~

喜欢你~~

~~~亲爱的~~~

~~~好想念你哦~~~

~~~不知道亲爱的最近如何~~~

~~~我发觉~~~

~~~我好像不能失去你~~~

~~~上个星期~~~

~~~都有好几天没睡~~~

~~~在床上打滚~~~

~~~打了好几个钟头~~~

~~~才渐渐入睡~~~

~~~睡没多久就跳回起来~~~

~~~我的头脑在那时候~~~

~~~不停地一面想着亲爱的~~~

~~~完全不受我的控制~~~

~~~我看我应该是~~~

~~~渐渐地喜欢上亲爱的了~~~

~~~真的真的好想~~~

~~~好想对你说喜欢你~~~

~~~却又偏偏说不出口~~~

~~~我又怕说了的话~~~

~~~我会失去我们这段友情~~~

~~~再也不能有回像现在这样~~~

~~~咳~~~

~~~如果说放下的话~~~

~~~我觉得我不是~~~

~~~不是那种易上易下的人~~~

~~~虽然古人说~~~

~~~时间是最好的良药~~~

~~~但对我来说~~~

~~~真的需要一段~~~

~~~很长很长的时间~~~

~~~才能恢复~~~

~~~真的好烦啊~~~

又一个伤心的一天

今天是星期日~~~
又是我回到大学~~~
等待着新的学期开始~~~
但却在今天~~~
又成了我另一个~~~
伤心的一天~~~

可能一直以来~~~
都是我自己一厢情愿吧~~~
当你是个知心的好朋友~~~
谁知~~~
我可能想太多了吧~~~
但我也不是没根据的~~~

我放假整整一个月~~~
找你出来喝茶~~~
你就是会说不得空~~~
但是在这整整的一个月~~~
没有可能那一点点的时间抽不到嘛~~~
我都没期望你陪我看戏还是什么~~~
只是喝茶这个出来聚聚都不能吗？~~~

换了电话号码~~~
又没有让我知道~~~
让我白白地发了短讯~~~
在那傻傻痴痴地等待回复~~~
我看我可能是最后一个才知道~~~
你告诉我说~~~
“我只是告诉我的同学而已”~~~
我想我在你的心目中~~~
我就连你的同学都不如~~~
连一个陌生人都不如~~~
要不是我问~~~
我看~~~
我一辈子都不知你了电话号码~~~
就在那痴痴傻傻地等待~~~

真的是好生气~~~
但又非常伤心~~~
有一股好想哭的感觉~~~
但又哭不出来~~~

Loneliness...

Dear all fellows...
This post i will write it in English...
Sorry for the inconvenient...

Maybe I just think too much...
But may be what I think is true...
As a human being...
Maybe I'm the worst...

Everyone said that...
Be a human being...
Don't think too much...
If not you will think too over...

I failed to be a human being...
I always like to think...
Anything, anytime...
My brain will keep on thinking...
Unstoppable brain...

I will think about...
All sort of stuff...
What have I done...
Who is important in my life...

Sometimes...
My brain will think till pessimistically...
Non-stop thinking...
What a annoying life I had...

This kind of thinking...
Is what it bring to my life...
The feeling that...
Loneliness and the sadness...

Why am I being lonely...
Why am I being so sad...
Who the hell made me fell lonely...
And who the hell made me fell sad...

My brain keep on thinking of it...
Even through...
I came out with a answer...
But still...

I don't think the answer is correct...
Many things in this world...
There is no the actual answer...
There is no right or wrong...

The matter of right and wrong...
It is so dependable for the specific person...
So , for me...
Thinking too much is not a wrong thing...

Currently for me...
I think this world is so corrupted...
It's so dark for me...

There is nothing last forever...
Relationship between boy and girl...
Friendship between each other...
Fellowship between all human being...

I know maybe some of you think that I'm wrong...
But for what had happened to me...
There is no doubt that I won't think so...
My friendship and fellowship can't last long...
There is no need to say about the relationship of mine...

I neither have a good relationship nor friendship...
Maybe is my personal problem...
Or maybe is this world being corrupted...
I still can't find the answer for this...

Since I still can't find the answer...
And where is the problem...
So now...
I will continue my loneliness and emo journey...
Until I manage to find the light of this world...
Or the another way which connect my loneliness journey to the other route...

XXX 放假的开始 XXX

~~放假开始了~~
~~好闷的放假~~
~~都不懂能做些什么呢~~
~~家乡的朋友又不多~~
~~他们又不得空~~
~~咳~~
~~真是的~~
~~他们放假我还有上课~~
~~现在到我放假了~~
~~他们却又要上课~~
~~真是没话好说~~
~~天啊~~
~~为何那么对我~~

****一天****

~~一天~~
~~还有一天~~
~~一天的考试~~
~~一天的等待~~
~~这一天来了~~
~~这天一过~~
~~学位第一个学期完了~~
~~放假就开始~~
~~放假期间~~
~~我要练琴~~
~~我要读书~~
~~但~~
~~我会担心~~
~~担心我的成绩~~
~~那会是个~~
~~好漫长的放假~~
~~就一天以后~~

要放假了。。。

~~咳~~
就要放假了~~
不知是开心事还是伤心事呢~~
真的是不知道呢~~

开心的那一部分就是~~
能回家~~
回到我最甜美的家~~
能睡在我想念的床~~
能看到我想念的东西~~

不开心的那一个部分就是~~
又回到了我的伤心之城/地~~
好害怕这次又不懂~~
会有什么伤心之事发生在我身上~~
所以我决定了~~

回到这伤心之地/城~~
没有必要的时候~~
就应该不会出街~~

这次放假有整整一个月~~
说长又不长，说短又不短~~
但我应经会在一个漫长的心情度过~~
因为我亲爱的已发出命令~~
不再让我在叫她亲爱的了~~
除此之外~~
中学生已经开学了~~

现在的我真是矛盾~~
又想这放假赶快到了~~
又不想这放假不要到来~~

~~咳~~

新的开始。。。

好久没回来写我的部咯个了。。。
因为最近都没有任何感想来写。。。
今天我有感想能跟大家分享。。。
这次我的分享会跟上几个POST有关。。。
如果谁新到这部咯个的话。。。
又想知道事情的经过。。。
就请看回之前的POST吧。。。

我这就开始吧。。。
我之前跟我亲爱的超过架。。。
我还以为这样我们就完了。。。
没想到她既然原谅我。。。
她肯原谅我。。。
我觉得我真是幸运。。。
但谁知。。。

这是就是一个新的开始。。。
新的开始是就是新的啦。。。
但这没有我想像中的那么理想。。。
我发短讯给她。。。
她虽然有回我。。。
咳。。。但也是。。。
现在的我。。。
真希望我和她能像以前一样。。。。
什么都能谈一番。。。